Thursday, September 22, 2011

Some Reflection On being an overachiever...

My reflection is as follows..... as I have written before I enjoy joining different swaps and was working on my Bead Soup Party piece along with a back to school themed necklace for my other swap,along with making jewelry to supply  a local yoga studio,where I practice, my museum trunk show,the shops I supply and the farmers market, all on top of my day job,my etsy shops and the most important thing being a mom to Joey, so all I can say is that I am almost to busy for words.

So I have been trying to plug away and really get things done(overachieving).

And then BAM!!!  my illness began rearing it's ugly head this past week, just when I have zero time to be down and out. I try to stay as positive as possible about my health issues,sometime I tantrum,sometime it's so bad I cry and ALL of the time I wish it was different for me,I rarely discuss it because of how others react, I don't want a pity party,or to hear you poor girl,or the people who just shake their heads in dismay, I've had to come to grips it's just what it is and it's now part of my life.  I suffer from  facial and cranial neuralgia, migraine headaches and fibromyalgia.
Starting last spring I went from the epitomy of health to a disaster practically overnight.
Oh yeah I had every doctor completely baffled,neurologists,family doctors,alternative doctors,if there was a doctor or specialist I saw them,yet not a single one could figure out what the hell my problem was. So countless amounts of doctor visits,dentist visits,tests oh and a truckload of cash later, One specialist decided to paste a generic name on what I have(at least I think it's generic) it just means head,face and all over body pain. And the  guess is, that a non contagious strep infection in my blood is to blame. So after 6 months of hard core,and extremely painful, I might add, antibiotic injections 3 times a week,several oral antibiotics, they found out that this particular strain is resistant to antibiotics. Yep screwed.
I  would have been nice to know that, before my hair started breaking off,me becoming anemic from the injections,my teeth being discolored and my body and immune system being totally wiped out from these lovely antibiotics.

So being disgusted with what was happening to me I took matters into my own hands  the only things that the doctors were doing was screwing me up more than I was to start with. So I began  a hardcore life change which includes a supplement plan,a restricted eating plan, an exercise plan and I got off of those nasty antibiotics,started to build up my immune system with herbs,fighting the infection with colloidal silver and have been functional for about 6 months. Then of course since I was beginning to feel a bit better,maybe not my old self but way better than I had in over a year, I  completely lost my mind and started wear myself thin,by overworking and under sleeping, my already (stupid)fragile body and bite off more than my sick ass can chew. The migraines back full force this past week and face,neck and body pain from out of this world.

So the moral of all this drivel is that I took a look at my miserable reflection and said "Hey asshat,snap out of it, you need to relax a little before you are totally worthless to everyone." Every once in a while it's good to give yourself a little shake and reality check. So I guess what gets done gets done and what doesn't doesn't. Not a great motto but for now it's going to be my motto!

Saturday, September 17, 2011

My Bead Soup Blog Party Reveal

I have already shown you what my lovely partner Marie from sent to me in a prior post. So many pretty focals to choose from and of course if you have ever visited my etsy  shop you all know my love of butterflies, so again here are the pretties I was sent.....

This I suppose is the before

I was sent many focals and just a spattering of Marie's lampwork beads and a beautiful verdigras hand forged clasp. I sat and looked and mulled all of new stash over and over again and came up with a whole lot of nothing. So I dove into my never ending stash and things started coming together,or so I thought. Well lets say I made and remade this necklace 3 times before I was happy with the outcome. Hopefully everyone hoping will enjoy it too!!

My finished necklace so then this is the after. 

I have never done this before,sure I have done finished exchanges using all of the things that I have,make or gravitate towards. Make a theme piece and then send it off to a partner.I working on one of those as we speak. But this was a whole new experience for me,it helped me to work outside of my comfort zone,use lamp work beads which I rarely, if ever use,and add elements that I would not have thought to use or add.

I am so overjoyed and happy with what this has done for me creatively I will now seek out such swaps as much as I can,or if I can find any others.

Now here is  the link to the other participants so if you liked seeing mine,as much as I liked showing it,I'm sure others would be thrilled for you to check out theirs' too. Yeah I know, the I'll show you mine if you show me yours innuendo is a tad over used but I just couldn't resist.So here's the link

Sunday, September 11, 2011

Back to School Week Madness

Well this past week my son started back to school and along with back to school always comes mayhem. It's so hard to fall back into a routine after a nice long,relaxing summer.
Now it's bedtime for all at 9:30, including my husband and I. I can hardly keep my eyes open past 10:00 anymore, since I get up at 5:00a.m. during the school year. I hate to admit it to Joey but I look forward to weekends just as much,if not more than him. His school offers no busing so yep I drive him to and pick him up from school everyday,I won't even begin to touch on the school parking lot mayhem that ensues everyday.

He seems to like his teacher a whole lot,which makes school more tolerable for him. But the ciriculum is getting harder and harder and the work load is also increasing. It was difficult enough to help with math homework last year, his school does something called "Think Math" I call it torture. Wish us both luck in the homework department.

Onto the subject of pretties,I am spending part of my day off catching up on some jewelry making, my museum gig is rolling around quick and the studio where I practice yoga has asked me to make a line of jewelry for the studios shop,along with my handmade soap, and then some picture taking for my etsy shop and for here. That's how I will spend my day off tomorrow. Some day off huh???

Talk to you all soon.